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gosh..i have had too much training or dancing since last month… I m looking for a short break during Christmas! I m glad I decided not to go to the 25th retreat. At least I dont have to see someone. I wanted to just ignore that fella whole evening but when kiddo came , the ice was broken…and we are talking again… grrrrrrr……. Anyways, for me, things will not be back to normal..I drew the invisible curtain. 

My back is aching, and I think I could have pulled my thigh muscle slightly, there is a sharp pain, if I rotate my right leg to a certain angle…I got it since last week. That is one reason, I couldnt do my leap fully for the salsa track. I couldnt stretch without feeling all tight and ache! 

As for January, I m not sure…. it will seem so crazy… thinking of proposal given to me!

I couldnt understand, why do I deserve such treatment? I dont want to think about it, but after what happened today, you just shoved the thing away. What are you trying to proof?  Should I not be I annoyed? I was mad and I walked off immediately.  I dont need your reasons (whether u r stressed, no time, disorientated..), where is the friendship thingy u mentioned? I just dont want to care,  I got my work to do, I got my class to teach. I never linger around each time I c you. I m not asking for anything, bcos its just you being you. As you said you never treat me nice, and I agree…and you said sorry for always not treating me well … I DONT want to hear the word Sorry!!

I have never felt so hectic recently… WEddings after weddings (crazy months-so many weddings), post wedding relatives gatherings , classes, practise, workshops, housework,..I was so exhausted, I just stayed at home on Friday until wedding dinner time. ON Sat, I had a class, the boys from penang supposed to Team teach with me, ended up they stood me up (ffk) I had to teach the whole class alone and then go back home to walk the dogs, thank goodness my godbrother was here to help me, after that, we went to Bjam Workshop. At workshop, to my fear, there is something called bodyjam advanced and bodyjam . Difference is a more challenging choreo for the regulars, and easy option for the starters or certain levels… its means more things to memorise ..good and bad. The songs are quite alright except for track number 3!! WHich Jayson allocated for me.. I couldnt accept that kind of song, its hard to listen to the change-he got me tested for presentation! After bodyjam workshop, I rushed to another workshop, trying to catch it as I missed last round’s workshop. Gosh, my legs are so tired, when Cookie taught whacking. IT was fun, but tiring. HAd some crazy stuffs going on at the class and crazy photography sessions…divas posing for camera. That night, I met BBoy Choco  from Taiwan, I didnt know how good he was until I saw his u tube videos. I just think he is quite good looking. My friend said his flare was amazing. Yea, think so, I m no expert in bdance styles. Its not surprising that he has a busy schedule. Latte treat on me when he comes over to KL someday.

Over the weekend, I just managed to squeeze in sometime, yesterday and today for a few hours to do some shopping and manicure. Gosh, I m Missing all the shopping, I managed to buy the Puma bag that I saw last year? It was on sale,  I wanted the purple one, but i ended up buying the silver one. Beggars are no chosers, it was a huge slash down from rm599 to RM120. AHHH…on second n third thought, I decided to buy it! And Puma underwear for rm10 from Rm69? Itchy hands…bought! THe great malaysian sale, finally I see somethings really marked down!! But Adidas is not giving a good discount.. hello, pity us who have to work our butts out to buy sports gear, we dont get sponsors and freebies.

As I m looking at my schedule for this week, its absolutely swarmed, no rest day at all. My rest day is 22nd, when its Clarissa’s turn to alternate the class…phew.

I m tempted to attend the 25th retreat, but I figured that I will not want to go. My friend thinks its better not to go, maybe next year I like to go for an outing with friends, not family. I missed outing with friends. I felt like I m missing a lot of things in life…

I need to blog it out.., I do have time in between my hectic schedule , because I need to be alone and do nothing otherwise I go bonkers.

live works in a mysterious way…i would never have thought i be teaching dance … i thought i would want to be a body combat instructor..ended up i m teaching body jam… i hardly take dance seriously.. i did some jazz.. few months, cheerleading..maybe join my good friend Olsen in dance class in the gym. I remembered how awkward I was in the class, when I saw Olsen, Melody dancing to Vanessa steps. They were good. Olsen was so supportive, he is my good friend, despite the distance.

Strange enough, I never danced since I came back from HK, and since after Olsen Left HK to work in Canada. For a few years doing combat, until one fine day, I met HEnry, Anita, Jenny , ben, jerry and Azyie, Leonora…then I started body jam.. then I met Juwita. Now ..here I m, doing body jam. Everyone has room for improvement, especially for dance, its never ending learning process. Its hard. It demands a lot of patience..

Now, I met ppl like Jerry, Z, my dance addict friend Christina.. I think I know where my direction will be in time to come.