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Sometimes, not everything goes in our favour, sometimes, when times are bad.. everything crops up..

Sometimes, I wished to have a shoulder to cry on, but just will not want to tell anyone whats going on inside my mind.. and just have to act like everything is fine. ..because life goes on and I cant sulk in front of everyone.

Sometimes, I just wished my mobile would buzz in the middle of the night again, receiving cute messages.. then I can smile again…

I want to cry, but I will not cry..

As we like to say, time passes at a wink of the eye.

2009, started with advancements… I have advanced my snowboarding skills, as long as I m happily turning on beginner’s slope .. I m happy.

Secondly, I have chances to perform, even on an entry level for bellydance performances, just less than few months, I m got my first, and now the 2nd concert performance is coming up. Not that I m good, but its a good start for a beginner
Third, hiphop Newstyle performance…its a rather hard dance to learn, but its my 8th month 8×4 classes… I think there could be students dance performance coming up soon .. there are things that I dont get, but there are things here, that I maintained.. its the little little things that count
Great news that Urban Groove has the unlimited package for students now.. its just a chance for me to try other styles also (if i have the time)..

I hurt my back from fall , my shoulder has almost recovered, but my back is still aching and stiff. Went to chiropractor twice, went to sports injury doctor to seek 2nd opinion. Well, at least its not the worst thing imaginable. Thank god for that. Its already two months and I do get aches, tightness…

Baking-how on earth I would end up baking? Now I m baking bread! I have friends who wouldnt mind trying my baking, now I got friends offering to buy almost every week!

Anyways…

Ah, again, exhaustion.. 

Since last week, I guess this happens whenever there is a new body jam release, and it happens every quarter. Though I gave up a few classes, I m still tired these days. Came back fresh from holidays now I m exhausted again.

Today I m really not able to remember the moves , well, I did, but my mind was clouded and I cant link the moves. So many hand movements, finger pointing, levels, feet… positioning…. I cant remember most of the counting, only feel the music and where the moves are at which beat…where to go slow, smooth and hard on the beat. Worst of all, sometimes I m confused over mirror image … I look at the mirror and I do the opposite (occasionally, though its much lesser now).

I slept till 930am..and I slept again in the afternoon from 5 to 630pm. Mentally stressed, I m glad that J gave me a video of the dance for me to check my mistakes. 

Tomorrow class at LM, the members are expecting me, as what I heard from Jus. She cant wait to come to my class.. Time to nap…

certain things didnt happen… well… life’s like that, not everything goes on as planned.

January 2009,Crazy busy month.

Crazy Jan 1- Time flies, and i m away during chinese new year again. I m joining my crazy cousins for winter again. Truthfully, i dont like snowboarding as much as what i m doing now in kl. But I have to admit , i love the food here in japan.

Crazy Jan 2-Finally, I have squeezed my time to met up with my long lost friends, I considered that as my long awaited dream came through. Losing hours of sleep to meet them and drive them around was worth it. Though I really suffered badly the next day with just 3 to 4 hours of sleep. I thought I lost them forever, I have always wished to see them again. Meeting up with two of them, felt so good, though one of them is still in USA.

February 09, I wonder if I m crazy to think of February? Perhaps,live is not measured by breathes that we take, but by moments that take our breath away. There are always certain crazy things that people decides that they want to do, or invited to do, or whatever, we call that Crazy things that Crazy People DO. Truthfully, I want to be crazy for a moment. At least I have lived life… its better than not living it and regretting that you have not lived to enjoy it. Gosh what am I blabbering about.

March-Plans for event 1 is pending my girlfriend to decide. Event 2, is dependant on how fast I catch up, other events.. I have yet to decide how to go about planning and do.

New Year, New Us, New Everything-What will you want to do for 2009?

gosh..i have had too much training or dancing since last month… I m looking for a short break during Christmas! I m glad I decided not to go to the 25th retreat. At least I dont have to see someone. I wanted to just ignore that fella whole evening but when kiddo came , the ice was broken…and we are talking again… grrrrrrr……. Anyways, for me, things will not be back to normal..I drew the invisible curtain. 

My back is aching, and I think I could have pulled my thigh muscle slightly, there is a sharp pain, if I rotate my right leg to a certain angle…I got it since last week. That is one reason, I couldnt do my leap fully for the salsa track. I couldnt stretch without feeling all tight and ache! 

As for January, I m not sure…. it will seem so crazy… thinking of proposal given to me!

I couldnt understand, why do I deserve such treatment? I dont want to think about it, but after what happened today, you just shoved the thing away. What are you trying to proof?  Should I not be I annoyed? I was mad and I walked off immediately.  I dont need your reasons (whether u r stressed, no time, disorientated..), where is the friendship thingy u mentioned? I just dont want to care,  I got my work to do, I got my class to teach. I never linger around each time I c you. I m not asking for anything, bcos its just you being you. As you said you never treat me nice, and I agree…and you said sorry for always not treating me well … I DONT want to hear the word Sorry!!

I have never felt so hectic recently… WEddings after weddings (crazy months-so many weddings), post wedding relatives gatherings , classes, practise, workshops, housework,..I was so exhausted, I just stayed at home on Friday until wedding dinner time. ON Sat, I had a class, the boys from penang supposed to Team teach with me, ended up they stood me up (ffk) I had to teach the whole class alone and then go back home to walk the dogs, thank goodness my godbrother was here to help me, after that, we went to Bjam Workshop. At workshop, to my fear, there is something called bodyjam advanced and bodyjam . Difference is a more challenging choreo for the regulars, and easy option for the starters or certain levels… its means more things to memorise ..good and bad. The songs are quite alright except for track number 3!! WHich Jayson allocated for me.. I couldnt accept that kind of song, its hard to listen to the change-he got me tested for presentation! After bodyjam workshop, I rushed to another workshop, trying to catch it as I missed last round’s workshop. Gosh, my legs are so tired, when Cookie taught whacking. IT was fun, but tiring. HAd some crazy stuffs going on at the class and crazy photography sessions…divas posing for camera. That night, I met BBoy Choco  from Taiwan, I didnt know how good he was until I saw his u tube videos. I just think he is quite good looking. My friend said his flare was amazing. Yea, think so, I m no expert in bdance styles. Its not surprising that he has a busy schedule. Latte treat on me when he comes over to KL someday.

Over the weekend, I just managed to squeeze in sometime, yesterday and today for a few hours to do some shopping and manicure. Gosh, I m Missing all the shopping, I managed to buy the Puma bag that I saw last year? It was on sale,  I wanted the purple one, but i ended up buying the silver one. Beggars are no chosers, it was a huge slash down from rm599 to RM120. AHHH…on second n third thought, I decided to buy it! And Puma underwear for rm10 from Rm69? Itchy hands…bought! THe great malaysian sale, finally I see somethings really marked down!! But Adidas is not giving a good discount.. hello, pity us who have to work our butts out to buy sports gear, we dont get sponsors and freebies.

As I m looking at my schedule for this week, its absolutely swarmed, no rest day at all. My rest day is 22nd, when its Clarissa’s turn to alternate the class…phew.

I m tempted to attend the 25th retreat, but I figured that I will not want to go. My friend thinks its better not to go, maybe next year I like to go for an outing with friends, not family. I missed outing with friends. I felt like I m missing a lot of things in life…

I need to blog it out.., I do have time in between my hectic schedule , because I need to be alone and do nothing otherwise I go bonkers.

live works in a mysterious way…i would never have thought i be teaching dance … i thought i would want to be a body combat instructor..ended up i m teaching body jam… i hardly take dance seriously.. i did some jazz.. few months, cheerleading..maybe join my good friend Olsen in dance class in the gym. I remembered how awkward I was in the class, when I saw Olsen, Melody dancing to Vanessa steps. They were good. Olsen was so supportive, he is my good friend, despite the distance.

Strange enough, I never danced since I came back from HK, and since after Olsen Left HK to work in Canada. For a few years doing combat, until one fine day, I met HEnry, Anita, Jenny , ben, jerry and Azyie, Leonora…then I started body jam.. then I met Juwita. Now ..here I m, doing body jam. Everyone has room for improvement, especially for dance, its never ending learning process. Its hard. It demands a lot of patience..

Now, I met ppl like Jerry, Z, my dance addict friend Christina.. I think I know where my direction will be in time to come.

II sent u this quote today…Friendship isnt about whom you have known the longest… Its about who came, and never left your side….

If you said , u xin sie (value) my friendship, then I hope you meant it ..not by words, but action in time to come.